Reflection

Why is it when I have no desire to go to church is when I get the most out of the mass. So I have been struggling with the whole I have to go to mass everyday thing. And it is not easy for me. For starters it is all in Spanish, and the priest rushes through the Eucharist which is the most important part for me. Well if you have been following my blog we attend two churches one on Wed and Mon and the other on Tues and Thurs. So today at mass that I had to force myself to go to again I was listening to the reading and not really paying attention but just having prayer time with God. And literally the reading was so long and then there was the responsorial psalm. But I had yet another moment with God and I truly felt his presence and it was just he and I in the Church. As I am faced with the challenges here it amazes me how God has been working with me. I am the type of person who enjoys my alone time, which is a hard concept for many to understand here. But the times I have been in church and I have been in the presence of God I have been able to shut out everything that is going on and just listen to what he wants me to do.

The other day my mother asked me if I was going back to school. And I told her I do´t even know what I am doing tomorrow. I have had to just take things as they come here I. I have no time to worry about the future, I can only focus on the presence. And it is such a wonderful gift I have been giving. We ofter worry about so much that is not in our control, and I have learned to just take one day at a time. And the days here have flown by. And my worries are very few here I am excited to see what is in store for my next chapter in life. Because if it is anything like this experience I am having now I invite it with open arms.